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“Kindly”
I was just reading an article about an app that has come out called “Kindly”, the concept is pretty simple there’s a 15 minute timer, and this isn’t one of those hook up sites like tinder/grinder etc… It’s for you to get things off your chest to a stranger.
Vampire Poetry…Not My Best Idea
So I was going through my old writings while sitting at Starbucks trying to work on finishing writing my book. Of course me being me I got distracted and started looking through my notebooks at old things that I had written, some of which (possibly this one) I had written while definitely not sober.
Anyway I haven’t shared anything recently so I figured I’d share this with you all! It’s not my worst piece but its certainly not my best, Enjoy!
Am I Wrong?
Relationships regardless of the type take work.
You can’t expect to keep a relationship of any type at a really connected level without some commitment from either party, sure you can go a long time without talking to a friend and then when you do speak again have things feel like there was never any time spent without each other.
Forgiveness
How do you do it?
Obviously there are a lot of things that aren’t forgivable, but what inside ourselves as people decides what is and isn’t forgivable.
I’m not talking about rape or murder obviously those kinds of things are morally wrong and near impossible to forgive, even if you were to find it in your heart to forgive, it’s not always easy to let it go. anyway,
Quitting Smoking
I’ve quit smoking before and it was really easy, just quit smoking even though I had smoked most of my life.
I have decided I want to quit once again, and hopefully this time not let outside influences to get my started again.
It’s harder this time around, I am not really sure how I want to go about replacing the habit. When I quit that first time I replaced it with riding my bike 12 miles a day, which felt great by the way! Now I don’t have my old bike, sure I can borrow my buddies bike it’s just not the same style that I enjoy riding. it’ll have to do for now.
Quitting smoking, is a healthy choice for someone to do in life, but that’s not my reason to stop actually, as sad as that might sound, I only want to quit to save money. Buying a pack of smokes every other day at 5 bucks a pop sure does add up!
The first month is the hardest, I’ll have my emotional tantrums, and probably be very rude to some people who wont deserve it. I’m going to do whatever I can to control that though!
XOXO
Seven Days.
I decided to give something a shot, I am having financial issues as I’ve said, and I am wanting to get back into shape. I don’t recommend anyone to try this method without seeing a physician first and getting the okay. The Liquid Diet can be a safe and effective weight to cleanse your body and lose weight, HOWEVER the way I am performing the liquid diet is not an ideal way to do it. I cannot afford to buy vitamins to supplement what I am losing from the lack of foods, and i am definitely not getting enough calories from the liquids I am using. Basically I am pushing anorexia which is not safe at all.
Shattered
He said things always so kind, never a word to hurt another and still she feared he would hurt her even if it wasn’t intentional. How could she go on pretending she was not scared? The fear and pain of struggle had to be playing on her face, surely her mask of pleasant smiles and bright eyes was crumbling as he gazed at her.
She could not tell if he noticed anything, his crooked smile reached all the way up to his eyes, she couldn’t help but return her own shaking grin. She wanted to tell him that she trusted, with all her heart, in his kind words, gentle kisses, sweet strong hugs. She just couldn’t bring herself to say it though, the small voice screamed in her head telling her that it was too good to be true and things would end just as they had before, that if she lets her heart out from behind the carefully crafted wall she had built to protect herself, that her world would come crashing down, crumble into tiny pieces, like a glass hand mirror shattering as it hits the ground.
She saw his smiles start to wilt around the edges, just like a dying rose, the corners of his mouth folding into a more concerned look. She knew then that she had let her mask completely slip, he had seen everything now, he had to know that she was having these doubts and memories. The pain in her eyes had to be raw and open on her face.
He lifted a hand to brush the hair from her eyes, then he played his hand under her chin, lifting her head slightly so he could clearly see in her, “You’re worried about something, I can see it in your eyes, what is it my darling? Have I done something to cause you distress? Whatever it is I will fix it!”. She wanted to tell him that it wasn’t his fault that it was all things from her past, but the words just sat left unsaid on her lips, tears formed in her eyes. She wished so badly that she could turn back time just at least to five minutes ago, so she could be in more control of her emotions and facial expressions. He kept looking at her with such loving eyes, she reached her hand up involuntarily, cupping her hand on his cheek.
She was ever this forward, she always waited for the guy to place his hands on her, she never felt worthy enough to have her hands anywhere but at her sides with her eyes down unless she was directly spoken to. She knew he could sense the anxiety in the way her body was shaking, he pressed her hand down firmly against his face, she could feel the stubble on his rough face, each hair just breaking the surface of his skin, along with the warmth pouring into her freezing hands, she hadn’t realized she was so cold until just then. She looked up into his face and saw his eyes closed, his face all soft lines and his smile was starting to come back.
She didn’t understand what was happening at first when he had slid his other hand around her waist so quickly pulling her close to him, she could smell his soap and cologne, not very strong but enough to make him smell absolutely amazing. Her body pressed tightly against his and he bent down eyes slightly open just so he could make sure she wasn’t protesting, and he kissed her lightly at first, just a brush of the lips, then he pulled her tighter she didn’t think it was possible be he managed it, and he started to explore her mouth with his and her hand found its way behind his head, locked into his perfect soft hair.
Belonging
7/17/14 – 7/23/14
I’m going to attempt to do a small challenge for myself, Currently being in New Orleans I see the effects of Katrina still linger, The city can’t keep up with covering the graffiti havoc that has happened,
The roads are still poorly damaged, and as often as they try to fix them, being below sea level causes the breaks to continue happening.
So my plan is to start small, and it’s not what you would think, I wont be going around trying to cover up the graffiti, or begging state officials to attempt the fix the side roads on the most tore up off streets.
I’m going to spend the next 7 days taking photos of the current state of NOLA and making it in to art.
Click >>>> #ProjectNola <<<< Here
This old city is so beautiful, even being run down in its current state.
It doesn’t seem like this is something very helpful, but by starting something as small as this, and to continue to help spread the word that there is still lots of damage that hasn’t been taken care of. Hopefully it will help push things further in the right direction.
I am hoping that other’s will make an effort to work to help at least fix the streets and cleaning the graffiti, whether it’s through donations or just continuing to spread the word to other’s, this kind of thing needs to be known and fixed sooner than later!
The photo’s will be uploaded to my Instagram, which can also be seen here on my WordPress.
(Featured photo were taken by me
November 2013
before I made the move to NOLA)
C.R/F.G
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